Hi Mom,
For the past couple of days I haven't had to have my usual energy level, and everything has seemed to take twice as long as it should. First I do a couple of hours of work outside (pruning, watering, raking, etc.) and then I feel like taking a nap. That's not usually how I am, wanting to take a nap mid-morning. I'm still having quite a bit of phlegm coughed up in the morning, even a month after having that "monster cold".
Along with the low energy comes a resurgence of the unhealthy craving for a mid-morning snack as well, as if that will bring my energy level back! Largely because of that mid-morning snack and another late-evening one, my food intake both days has been at a level which won't make me gain weight, but won't make me lose either.
It's just a choice, that's all. One just has to decide what is more important in life. What continues to amaze me is how those cravings for extra food can continue to feel like such a strong need, when they are not a need.
I have accomplished some things. I have kept the front part of the house basically neat (almost a week and a half now!) I did practice guitar and singing the night before last, and yesterday I finished Helen's letter Tuesday, and printed it out at the library between my tutoring session and stopping in at the Boys' and Girls' Club.
At my tutoring session yesterday, we started going through my travel website to make a list of what still needs to be done before I feel ready to "put the word out" about it. We checked whether links worked, making links if they hadn't been made, and making a note of what content still needs writing. We only got a little bit of the way, but it felt like a good thing to do. (I already have over thirty pages of content on the site, but some categories still do not have enough content.)
It was Dale Sr.'s birthday today. I said "good morning, Happy Birthday" and asked him if he'd slept well.
"Yeah, pretty much", he said. "Until he gets chasing whatever he's chasing down the street down your back." (Referring to Ziggy having a dream during the night and starting to "run" in his sleep.)
When I was transferring Helen's letter to Microsoft Word so that I could print it, a girl of about ten was trying to print out something, talking over me to her Mom on the other side of me. I realized that I recognized her from the Boys' and Girls' Club, and told her mother that that's where I'd seen her. That's one of the nice things about working with kids in a small town, you get that kind of thing happening.
(It used to happen when I worked in the schools, and I didn't realize how much I'd missed it, until I started volunteering at the Boys and Girls Club, and it started happening again.)
My "business cards" came, and I really like them!
Here is a photo of one of my business cards.
It felt really great stopping by the Boys and Girls Club because they were so glad to see me! I had dreaded the errand because I felt bad about not being able to do the drama club this fall, though I knew that it was the only way to "get things going" there again. I apologized for not being there so long, and told the young women at the desk about staying in British Columbia longer than I'd planned, coming back and getting sick, and then my car being in the shop.
The young woman who is the front desk manager (while the usual one is out for the month to have her baby) said that she'd noticed my program when she started working there late in the spring, and she'd really liked what I was doing.
I ventured that even though it was too late to start drama club this fall, I'd like to basically start coming in to just help out.
If I did that once or twice a week, I could start getting to know the kids that were there this fall. She said they didn't see why I couldn't start doing the drama club, anyway.
"Yeah, I could start preparing them for whatever I will have them perform in the spring." (That was really what I had wanted to do, but had feared that it would not make sense to them to start a program a month before the holidays.)
I went home to eat a something, but realized that I would have to go back up to Starbucks. I'd told Dale Jr. I would look up the locations of the Chase banks in Tempe, so we could meet today to route the money for my part of the down payment on his house.
I e-mailed him the location of the most conveniently-located bank, and he called back to say that he would call me because he'd had the flu and didn't know if we'd be meeting at a bank close to here, or the one in Tempe.
While at Starbucks I noticed the full moon, and stepped outside to take a photo of it. I had to really crouch down a bit and shoot looking up, to get the strip mall buildings out of the photo!
I was pretty pleased with it and posted it on Facebook. A friend "messaged" me right away and said it was so beautiful she'd be "sharing it" meaning she'll post it on her timeline and all of her friends will see it, in addition to all of my friends.
I ended up spending most of the evening at Starbucks because I suddenly got motivated (I think it was the arrival of the "business cards") to schedule a gardening meetup. I'd not scheduled one ever since I scheduled one and those two unpleasant women showed up. But I have also told myself that I should still keep trying, no matter what, because I know there are some gardeners out there whom I would like to know.
Then I went ahead and made some changes to my "healthy eating" meetup, which has had no success at all.
All this took quite a bit of time, on an evening when I should have been finishing little Shayla's second blanket.
Love, Lennie
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